Seven Years Already !!

Seven Years Already !!

Memories rule our life.  Every single moment or thing, that we live or do morphs into memories.Our brain maps each memory to a certain set of keywords which might be a visual image or a thought. One can try to decipher the route which our train of thoughts takes  and i am sure they would find themselves laughing or at the least smiling at what actually was the origin of the thoughts . And with an associative memory , it doesn’t take much to start a trip down the memory lane and relive them.

For the past couple of weeks , i have been attending job interviews. And i just can not seem to stop myself from reminiscing my first ever job interview with Infosys !. And what’s more special is that it happened on this day 29th June,just seven years earlier!  The campus interviews  for  my batch of  engineering students (back then , a graduate now , obviously :P) were scheduled during the initial days of our final year. And TCS  had been given the first slot like every year. I had not gone past the aptitude round  for that. But i wasn’t disappointed much , I don’t know why. That year was the first time Infosys had planned to be one of the companies in the campus recruitment and they had the second slot . I had resolved and made a decision to succeed  in the recruitment process with them. I had to somehow.

So the day dawned bright and early. I got ready and like most days , dad dropped me off and left . All the eligible candidates gathered in the college auditorium and Infy’s famous Power-Point presentation which has the awe-inspiring Mysore  campus pictures and  “This is my infy ” song was about to start. But then ,to my horror i realized , I had forgotten my college ID card !  And ID card was totally necessary to enter into the exam hall where the aptitude had been scheduled. Mobile phones were restricted back then. But some of my friends did bring it with them . So i called dad from a mobile and asked him to bring my ID. Like every concerned parent does, he admonished me for my careless attitude  ,but he said he will bring it .

The presentation had started and it was supposed to last for 25 minutes. The aptitude test was to start right after. I was not able to concentrate properly, was so damn tensed and nervous. “What a bad start ! ” was the thought in my mind and it worried me ,as to how the day will progress. The presentation ended and i was nervous wreck , by then, almost on the verge of tears. I came out of the auditorium ,thinking that i am going to have to sit this one out. But my father , just as always , had rushed(literally) to my rescue and had handed my ID card to a friend , who gave it to me . I was so happy that i couldn’t stop grinning from ear to ear.

Praising Appa (that’s how i call dad ), I almost skipped to the exam hall with a newly found confidence. The aptitude was pretty easy and i thought most of my classmates would find it the same way,as we all had prepared together for it.The duration for the aptitude got over and i had finished well before time . I came out of the hall and my dear friend , Karthik , who had already been placed in TCS , a geek by nature , asked me how i had performed. I flashed him my smile and showed him thumbs up sign. I told him it was easy. As others came out and i looked at their face reaction , i was like “huh oh , something is wrong”.As we started discussing , each of them telling how difficult they found the test to be , self-doubt creep-ed in . I thought i must have missed something , and i didn’t tell the others that i found it was a workable paper.An hour later , the names of the people who had cleared the aptitude round were announced in the auditorium .They had almost reached the end of the list and i was almost sure i hadn’t made it ! But no , my name was the second last . Whew !!

The interviews started and they were occurring in our college library , my favorite place !! 😀 . Infosys doesn’t have a technical round , only the HR interview. So my turn came and i went in. It started with the infamous “Tell me about yourself” question. So i told her about myself , then came the hobbies and how would i not mention books. So she asked me , whether i have read ramyana and mahabharata , i said yes . From then on she asked me questions related to my opinion about them, the characters , my take away from each book, characters which inspired me . Questions about books ! Who wouldn’t love to talk about books? In between she did ask me totally unrelated question stopping me in the middle of my answer for the previous question , then the next question would be the same question she had asked earlier which i had answered. But still it was fun .And the final question

HR:”Will you be flexible about your work location ?”

Me:”Of course, sure i would be willing to work anywhere , as long as it is not Kashmir,cause i am scared of terrorists”

And i walked off with a goofy grin !!

Gosh !! what a ridiculous answer !! Now when i think about it , i understand the incredulous look on the HR’s face ! I feel like i should dig up and go underground after answering like that! Damn embarrassing !! That answer should have actually nullified all the correct answers . But  no ,destiny had other thoughts ! I got in 😀 :D.When i called home , my parents and my elder brother were super happy. But till i got the offer letter , my appa used to ask me,periodically, “did you really get recruited ? Did  you really hear your name being announced ?” and i would badger my friends whether they heard my name when the results were announced. It got to a point where they told me off for worrying about it 😛

First job is always pretty close to everyone’s heart !  And so is mine . There have been many life defining moments when i was with Infosys and it has helped a great extent in my ever happening transformation.If not  for infy, i wouldn’t have met such wonderful persons and great bloggers. Nor would i have met people who are in my besties club,now. I never thought i would quit infosys! But there comes a point in life , where letting go and moving on is the best option for all the people involved.

So yeah , missing some one or some thing or some particular moment ? Dont worry ! What are memories for !

Jump in and enjoy your trip down memory lane !! 🙂 🙂 🙂

 

All about Choice

ALL ABOUT CHOICE

Just one spark of thought and a minute of contemplation is all that is needed for a change of mind ! Being spontaneous is an absolute fun.Just doing what the heart wants or what the heart feels as the right thing , without letting the brain take the fun out of it with its reasoning, has always been my way.

27 years of insane life and i haven’t completely figured out myself yet. And am not even sure whether i will be able to. An Aquarian , myself , i have always been hoping for a fairy-tale life. But the same heart also knew it was not possible and it stopped hoping for such impossible and impractical things. I learned to be practical , but sometimes emotions do get the better of me .

Maybe because i held the reins of my heart so tightly, it always fell for the most complicated choices. And it acted on its whim. I realized long back , that when things does not happen my way, its good.Realized , that for certain aspects of life, where i have no clue as to the consequences of doing what my heart desires, it is not wrong to let my brain decide upon it.

For these aspects of life, contemplation over the decision is needed. There might be deep sadness in my heart because of not doing what it wanted , but who knows the sadness could have been way deeper in case the consequences had turned bad.

Life can be either simple or complicated. It’s all based on the choices one makes. Why does it have to be that way ? Why do we always have to choose ? Yes I know . One can’t have everything . So one has got to choose.
but leave getting to have everything, in the end after making choices all life long, they would not have got anything . It’s not fair . yeah I can hear the argument. Well, you got to live with the choice made.
What i am saying is that why the hell there has to be choices in the first place . It’s not that easy.

It’s difficult to choose between the right choice and the easy choice. And the view of the choices vary with people ‘s perception. The easy choice will be the right choice for someone and vice versa.

How does one decide between what’s a right choice and a wrong one? A question which i asked to a friend recently and the reply was ” If the choice causes harm or hurts other people, then it’s wrong. Else it’s not “.Well then what if the right choice, ends up hurting the one choosing it ? Isn’t it wrong ? Shouldn’t the choice be fair. Why would anyone want to choose something that will cause pain and suffering to them?

Why is the thought of sacrificing one’s desire over the welfare of the others portrayed as if it’s a god like characteristic. ? Why is it being encouraged? Ain’t it similar to suicide ? What sort of life will it be, the one without any desires?

What else binds them to life ? What else keeps them living? What is the need for such a life which no one can understand ?which even the person living it ,can’t understand?

Hell. It’s not at all possible to understand one’s own life. With the age and life experienced , the basic makeup of one’s mind and soul undergoes many changes. At the end of journey when they look back they won’t even be able to identify themselves.

Newton got it right !! Third time lucky !

Newton got it right !! Third time lucky ! 

In my childhood, i happened to come  across many proverbial sayings , either in books or through elders’ thoughts.I didn’t understand the purpose of these proverbs. I just took satisfaction in the fact that i knew them by heart when asked. I understood their meaning but not really in the sense to apply or follow them in my life.  I didn’t need to . Thank God for that ! 😛

But now, at the age of 27 , I wish i could go back to that phase of my life , where i really didn’t understand these sayings and live my life according to my wish. Even if i decide to abide by any of these proverbs or sayings, what makes it more confusing is the inability to decide which one i should go by. For each proverbial verse that suggests an action, there is a proverb which suggests an action exactly opposite. Seriously ?  Even proverbs seems to follow Newton’s rule.

Do i persevere or let go ?  Do i have to be hasty or hesitate a lot ? Should i change for the society or be the way i am ? should i pursue my desires or be happy with what i have ?  do i judge people or not ?  should it be a team work or not ?

Confusing ,ain’t it ? if i decide based on the situation , i can never know if its the right one , until i act upon it and face the consequences. And if the results are not the ones i desired, it is going to be a big mess. I suppose there is a thin line of difference between these sayings and it would probably be better if i follow that line. Don’t know for sure .doubtful yet hopeful. 😉

Sharing some of these contradictory proverbs, in the hope of confusing you !! 😛  😉

Out of Sight,Out of Mind :: Absence makes the heart grows fonder

Try,Try,Try until you succeed :: Don’t beat your head against a stone wall

All good things comes to those who wait :: Time and Tide waits for no man

Never judge a book by its cover :: Cloth makes the man

Above all, to thine own self be true :: When in Rome, do as Romans do

Kindness – Sharing is caring !! :-) :-)

To write about an act of kindness that inspired me should be actually easy ! Or that’s what i thought , until i sat down to actually start writing on it .But nope, my mind drew up a blank as the clock went on with its tick-tock. It has been more than an hour since i opened the blank word document. And it was still blank. “Come on, it shouldn’t be so difficult to remember a profound act of that cadre”. It is not like i had never witnessed or experience kindness. But still i had no clue as to why my mind was clogged up and wouldn’t let me remember. I felt that if i tried too hard  to remember and then wrote about it , it would definitely resemble a superficial one. So i gave up  and went to bed.

And just as i was about to drift off into my Neverland, my brain didn’t fail me. It came up with the imagery. Yup I finally got one. It wasn’t what i expected but it led me to think more deeply about kindness.

So what was the imagery? I am sure you would like to know . It  was of my  1.5 year old niece sharing her favorite snacks “Lays” with us. She always takes a bite , then takes turns to give  us a bite from the same chip . The first time she did it, i was surprised. For we had not asked her for the chips  or told her anything about sharing.  Then there was this incident, we were out  and we happened to pass by a cute black puppy . She stopped us and showed us the dog and said bikky , which means biscuit in her language :P. What she was trying to say is , that she wanted to feed biscuits to the puppy.  Awwwww !! Yup that was my reaction.

This led to another memory of my own. New city ,New school, first day  and already late. So i get to sit in last bench. I couldn’t understand what was being said or taught and i was feeling down  and almost on the verge of tears,  when i hear a sound “psst”. I turn around to check where exactly is the origin of sound and there it was again .  The girl sitting on the bench beside me, smiled at me and waved . She took a chocolate from her box and asked me whether i wanted to have it . I said no, but she broke it into half and leaned over and kept it on my hand . I smiled in return as we both secretly munched on the chocolate.  Nevertheless to say , I felt better. That was my first stint with friendship and kindness.

Kindness :  The act of being friendly,generous or considerate.  Kindness can be inculcated from childhood. Yes, but as people age such kindness require a constant and conscious effort from the individual to be implemented .  Sometimes when  people are caught up in their life , they stop making the effort. But blessed are the people who are kind by their inherent nature. And blessed are we to be present in their midst. For they don’t require any effort to be kind. Just like a kid sharing his/her things with a sibling or friend.  And I wish  that the universe should always be blessed with  the presence of such people.

Is God, biggest tyrant?/Sick n tired of atheist moron

Disclaimer: I am not a prolific writer and neither am I a profound thinker; To write on a topic that requires reasoning ability and all that jazz, is tough job for me. So the below write-up might be confusing and nonsensical. So I happily welcome all the hate mail and rotten tomatoes and what not to my inbox. Definitely no intention to offend anyone. This is just a post by a confused soul. So apologies in advance if it hurts anyone inadvertently.

Is god the world’s biggest tyrant? No, I don’t think so. Am I sick n tired of atheist morons? Nope, definitely not. But, hell yeah, am pretty much tired of this conflict that is going on for ages.

It s all about beliefs isn’t it?  Not all people are same. Human beings are unique in their own way and differ from each other. When people are different, it’s only natural that their beliefs too will be different. And there is nothing wrong about it. So why do we have to argue about it. Won’t it be fair to all, if we agree to disagree? We can’t do that, can we? Cause it’s not in basic human nature. We always want to be the one who’s right and we love to prove others wrong. Its not in the human nature to not investigate about a mystery. We have this insatiable urge to define unexplainable things; otherwise we would all die of curiosity *yeah ,right*


(My take)

So human beings would have wondered about their origin and they came to believe in a divine power and coined the term god. Probably they were grateful and wanted to offer thanks. But how can u say it to someone who is unseen. So they used their imagination * oh boy, aren’t we good at that* and result gods in various forms. And they probably started worshiping asking for continued blessings.

Days passed and peoples’ progenies would have come onto this earth and when the elder generation tried to instill the beliefs in them, some of the younglings would have raised the questions “Why? How” and what not. *observed from each generation, the next one never accepts what the elders say without asking questions*. The elders would have a hard time to convince the young ones and so to aid them, they would have created the myths and legends *well, it’s very easy, you know?? All you need is an vivid imagination Yeah, yeah I can hear you telling that they are not myths but real facts. Well, you may be right .I don’t have a time turner with me, to exactly know what happened*. They would have probably succeeded to an extent, but there might be some younglings who were skeptical about it.

What would have happened if a calamity had befallen the human beings? What would have been their reaction?? There is a possibility for two reactions as far as my brain *a below average one* could think. They would have lost faith in their beliefs or the most common nature of human being would have kicked in. They would have assumed that the Gods were angry and the head person might have come up with some ritual which would be a solution to the problem in the first place or a sick ritual just for their pleasure.*Assumption is the root cause for all troubles, I say*.

Well, what if the people lost faith? They would have started preaching to others and the doubts lingering in the younglings skeptical of the beliefs would have started to haunt them and so the search for the so called TRUTH, very well aided by their brain. For they knew, they can’t just bluff. If they wanted others to believe them, they needed some proof. And so they set on their journey and worked towards it

In the meantime, different clans would have come across each other and found their beliefs to be different. So the concept of religion would have blossomed. They might have compared the result of the other clans’ rituals, gods with their own. Initially they would have adopted some changes into their religions, but later fought on the supremacy of their religions.*of course ego would have kicked in, if the other clan’s gods were more beautiful, there by inferring that their imagination is far better.*

Amidst these things, some human beings might have been born with gifts. And their actions would have been so sincere and passionate, that people felt that it was a divine experience to be with them and followed them and considered them to be blessed. It isn’t those gifted people’s fault *Well, I am not talking about the ones faking it!!* They would have just wanted to help. Well, at least I think it was that way. Or they would have loved all the attention that they were getting. God Who knows *Oops Strike that :-P*

So what happened to the people or people who lost belief and set out to find proof?  Well, on the way to find the proof of the truth, they did discover many wonderful things that provided some credibility to their arguments. But they wanted the people with beliefs to come out of the ignorance and blamed religion and God for all the problems in this world. *Well, I am confused*. They don’t believe in God, right?  Then how can they blame something or someone they don’t believe in. They should be blaming human being. They are the root cause for all the chaos and they choose ignorance. Let them be. Why do the non-believers try so hardly to make the believers see sense ?  Out of care ?? *yeah, right* Nope ,they wanted to prove them wrong.*Well , yeah, there are people who really do care(both theists and atheists). And I respect them*

Like the conflict between different religions, there arose a conflict between the believers and the non-believers. Reason, you ask? The believers wanted the non-believers to accept their version of truth and vice versa.*Duh the name sounds dumb* There can’t be someone who is a non-believer. Cause that person strongly believes that there is no such thing as God. So he/she does believe in something. So how can u call that person as a non-believer??

  They argued, fought for a stand ,forcing their opinions on each other, trying their level best to convince each other. And they still do. It is kind of irritating sometimes. I can hear it. People have right to express opinions. I agree. They are entitled to give voice to their opinions , but not stuff it on others. It would be just wonderful, if people agree to that.

So I hear you asking, what am i? Do I believe in God or Not? Well, I do believe in something which is along the line My life’s destination is set by the kind of thoughts running in my mind.

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P.S: I know ,people might find  there  is no reasonable logic Please feel free to drop a mail if u wanna tell that  I should stop writing such a dump.

We all need that one friend ..

 Sometimes, words are not enough to portray or convey the feelings or thoughts.And if we are not able to find a way to convey them, then there is no use in worrying about it.

It isn’t fair to assume the reason behind one’s actions or words. The problem is that,we just can’t seem to muster our courage and talk about it.
Mostly because of the fear of being judged and laughed at. We  would rather  bury it within our minds and act as if life is peachy.But there is always a consequence.
As days pass, the burden will increase and reach a point where it will affect the very core of our life.All you need is one friend to share them.
He/She might even be a total stranger or a close friend.
Only if we share our thoughts, we will know how it will be received.
It is silly to assume the reactions of other people and  worrying.But at the same time ,even if that friend reacts differently than expected, be ready to accept their views.
Open up,share your thoughts and you will realize the burden to have vanished.Hope you find your friend. I have.. 

Dedicated to that friend of mine.